My heart really dropped. It’s like I lost hope when i heard the draw, regained hope after talking to ex-teammate, had even more hope when we won the doubles, and even more hope when the second doubs won the first match. But my heart really dropped when they lost in the end. I don’t blame them, really. Because I understand how stressful it is to be playing a match that determines whether we lose or we continue fighting against those skillful players.
But i just can’t help but to tear. (especially when i saw anqi cry)
Maybe its because I’m so used to getting in top four during secondary school that I cant accept the feeling of losing (esp when we’re so close) that easily. :/
Furgh, really don’t feel like playing tomorrow (against hc) at all, its like total sianness for me.
I know life’s not just about winning, but i just wannna get into top four for my very last year…
Really grateful to the hcnj lifegroup who sent the many well wishes to me before the competition today. It gave me strength, definitely, and reminded me to do this together with God.
Still, thank you Lord for providing me strength and a tin bit of luck during my match!! I’m glad that my doubles with jingjing managed to clinch a point at least, for the team.
